I would have fully concurred
And I would not prevent anyone chasing that way if they wanted it
But its a chemical high rather than natural
And that high and love is just a feeling
its not real
its delusional self deception
If you meet anyone high as kite in state of euphoria they are zombies
they think they are having a good time covered in puke and piss, but are they really happy? or high as kite
most look like aliens
chalk white face
pupils dilated like they are on deaths door
hormones over driven
cant concentrate
gurning like a champion
eyes rolling into back of their head
But it feels nice
its more sadistic and the depravity is without limit
But the chemicals trick the mind into thinking its good to feel that way
And bad to feel human
Animal is better.
might feel good but its really bad on every level
I used to do it. I was that man
But I would wake up like death eventually then look at my old man pushed out his mind on vodka talking pure shite and think man does he actually believe its better to be that way.
then head out and join the gang again that night, totally oblivious to fact I thought my old man was loony for choosing vodka and getting blitzed-oh what a waste of life I thought. Poor alky dad wasting his life with vodka-while I wasted mine on double barrel mitsibushi and jack Daniels.
I could see the madness for him
But I couldn't see it for me.
I was cool and having great fun-dizzy and jumping about like a maniac while gurning and being unable to stay on topic.
I have no doubt my old man would have thought he was having blast while slouched on his chair smashed out his box as well. but he was a twat. I was cool and oh man that buzz was so great, didn't need life with that buzz until it turned into death warmed up and wanting to slash my wrists just to get out of bed.