This is an incredibly sad thread but has many positives, which is why it's good to talk. There is just too much to comment on, except to say that I just hope you all find some peace and contentment, within yourselves.
I stopped drinking about two years ago because I got so bored with it. I was lucky cause it wasn't a problem for me to stop. It was like my mind just said fuck it!
I was never an alcoholic, just a complete and utter fuckwit with drink in me - still am at times, just in case you hadn't noticed! I never liked it, never liked what I became and didn't even think about taste. Can't say I ever enjoyed a drink for taste alone.
I think life is better but it doesn't suddenly become magical. In fact, the mundaneness is just the same, without the hangovers.
Just wanted to wish you all well, whatever you're going through!
Your not a fkwit anton, you have had many things in life shaping your view.
A lot of people run from God for this but its man that causes grief, not God in my view.
As for the things i can never understand like child deaths etc i think if its medical or an accident then this is purgatory and these sweet souls had very little to work of... i know i will live till im very very old.
As for the other devils work when children are abused etc i think thats the devils work but God takes these good souls in.
I know you n I have a big difference of thought on this, i genuinely understand yours, mines helps give me comfort thtough life.
But in saying that, i would never, ever like to be truly tested because i don’t think i would meet the mark if i ever lost one of my children.
I have asked the Good Lord himself to keep my children safe, as for me, like most o would put myself in front of them.
For me its nick that causes grief but that if thats the case my God grants salvation and we will never rot being bitches for nick.
Equally i know that my thinking is only my thinking.
I have come from everywhere where my faith is questioned, usually disrespectfully and i’m not saying now you were disrespectful other than you questioning it through your life experience.
It just gets tough sometimes anton coz mostly your up against every soul that is against you having your faith, in scotland that has always been hateful. It tends to get my havkles up.
But God strike me down right now if i say an untruth, for me, it is man that causes more heartache n grief and God that grants salvation.
God does not make shite and Jesus forgave us all on the cross, who are we to doubt that we shall all be in heaven.
HH im not trying to convert you to my way of thinking, merely trying to offer ... peace?
Either way you can be grumpy but i knew we could be friends at the start, perhaps there was better ways for me to engage your friendship, my bad. ??