“So the Sharon episode was totally unexpected? Sounds like you wanted to look your best. I wonder why?”
“Penny I can’t believe you’re saying this to me. You must believe me. Look me straight in the eyes and see the total honesty in them. I swear to you on my mother’s grave I had absolutely nothing to do with that message.”
“Hmmmm……My first thought ……Is you’re mother dead and in a grave?
“Of course she is Penny. Look, I suppose the police will be able to prove who made the message one way or another. I know it certainly wasn't me. ……Anyway, how could I even get into her house, I don’t have any keys to her place. I don’t have a clue where she keeps her laptop and what her log on password would be. How could I possibly do the dirty on her?
“I suppose the police will be able to tell.”
“C'mon I'm a charmer, with an eye for the ladies, I do freely admit, but I'm not devious.”
“I do believe you, Charlie. This case has been so confusing. It’s……Well you are an actor. You're a story teller. That's part of your job. I had this horrible sinking dreadful fear you'd tricked me and used me.”
“I swear to you, I haven't. I give you my word Penny. I’m astonished by this. You have to tell me you believe me.”
Penny nodded.
“Thanks for believing in me, Penny. That means a lot to me. I respect you.”
“You probably won’t be here too much longer.”
“I suppose a celebratory shag’s out of the question?”
“Seriously? You never stop trying to get me to have sex with you, do you? You're an addict. A bloody sex addict! You are Charlie. You ought to get some serious professional help. Not funny.”
“Well in my experience when a woman says No to me, she doesn’t always mean No as in never. That can often mean Not Yet. After all, nothing ventured, nothing gained.”
“I’m not sure the High Court would agree with that as a defence.”
“By the way you were telling me last time self-esteem only comes from mastery over adversity. Your comment has stuck in my mind ever since you first mentioned it. You presumably must have faced a hell of lot of adversity and mastered it I guess to be so self-confident. Can you tell me more?”
“Sure, I mention this to my patients sometimes. Some want me to give them increased self-esteem by using hypnosis. As if I could apply one or two coats of instant self-esteem like you would apply a coat of paint but via some sort of easy magical hypnosis. They don’t realise I cannot teach them to feel confident. They require hard work to achieve a sense of self-esteem. They must learn how to stand tall and face their adversity and triumph. It’s the only way to do so. They think hypnosis can magically give them higher self-esteem. I can certainly help them visualize success and imagine how specifically they will achieve their success. But it’s only by working to achieve their success step by careful step and hard work that raises their self-esteem. This process of developing self-esteem all begins in early childhood. I heard a story once; I have no idea if it’s true though or a made-up story. There was an architect who worked from home and his three-year-old daughter had a young friend visiting. They were in a corner of the room using crayons to make some pictures. The little girl took a picture she had drawn to her father and asked him what he thought. He glanced away from his work and almost in a reflex said, “It’s beautiful darling, fabulous.” The girl turned to her young friend and shook her head in despair, “See, I told you he likes scribbles.”
She knew her picture was not good at all and there was absolutely no effort. I can tell you his over-the-top praise of her scribble certainly did not raise her sense of self-esteem at all. Self-esteem begins in infancy. Say you are a baby lying on a rug and you look up and see a brightly coloured ball four feet away. You try to crawl towards the ball and so you put your head down and wriggle and look up. The ball is now 6 feet away. You are going backwards. Huh? You are confused. You put your head down and wriggle again and now you are 8 feet away. Babies tend to crawl backwards at first. They get intense frustration. Eventually they go back and back until they reach a wall. They soon learn how to crawl forwards by using their arms and legs. That is tiring, but they keep going forward. They get closer and closer and when the baby reaches out and holds the ball the look of triumph on their face is astonishing. That is mastery over adversity. Their self-esteem rises. But if on the other hand, you see the baby struggling to reach the ball and ‘helpfully’ roll the ball to the baby, there is absolutely no mastery over adversity achieved and no rise in self-esteem, therefore. The parent thinks the baby will be grateful for receiving the ball but the parent fails to realise the baby has lost the opportunity to gain a dose of genuine self-esteem. Watch a baby learn to walk by pulling themselves up a table leg and after gaining her balance take a step towards a nearby chair. She wobbles, wobbles and ……plops down on her well-padded bottom. She drags herself up the table leg again and has another go. Again, she wobbles and she falls. Eventually she pulls herself up once again and takes a few now successful steps and reaches the chair. Look at her face. She is ecstatic. She has mastered the adversity of walking. Penny I swear if ever I’m lucky enough to have a child with the woman of my dreams I’ll never help our child to do anything they can do for themselves. They will have to button up their coat once they learn how to. No matter how long it takes them. They will have to chop up potatoes with a sharp knife and even make simple dinner one night a week from the age of 3. They will have to put on their shoes. Sure, it will take forever and I suspect and there will be loads of tears and pleas for my help from them but when they eventually succeed because they must do so without my help, they will be jubilant and feeling triumphant. That’s the moment when I will give them a loving hug and congratulate them on their hard-earned achievement.”